It’s 5 a.m. I want to sleep, I really do. Instead I’m here on my computer, been here since 3 a.m. writing. Why I can’t just confine my writing hours to daylight is beyond me. I’ll be lying in bed and an idea will hit, and there is nothing to do but get up and explore it. That’s because there is no going back to sleep until I do. It’s crazy I know. I’ve always been like this. Even when I had a demanding, full time job, I’d do nutty things like this and then drag my ass around the whole next day from sleep deprivation….. sometimes I think that I am the most frustrating thing about my life!
This morning I have tai chi classes in the Botanical Gardens. I love that place so much and wonder how I managed to live without a membership until this year. I had a favorite park in Toronto Canada where I lived in my previous life, called Edwards Gardens. It was actually part of a whole parks system and I could walk there for hours, or even hike up in the hills when I felt like it. I don’t miss much about Toronto but I do miss my beloved Edwards Gardens. When I am in the Botanical Gardens, though it looks nothing like it, I am reminded of the “feel” of my beloved E.G. It’s just magic! When I go today I am taking my netbook with me so I can do some writing before or after my tai chi classes. That way maybe I can capture some of the magic in words to share with someone.
Today is our one year wedding anniversary. I just can’t believe that a whole year has come and gone. In some ways it feels like I’ve been here in Idaho forever, and in other ways, like I’ve just arrived. In fact, I’ve been here one year, 3 months and 4 days, but who’s counting? As crazy as everyone thought I was at the time (and perhaps I was) it was the most daring and best move I ever made. I have never regretted a minute of it, and the joy I share with Richard, well, it is still unspeakable.
Since I have to get up in an hour and a half, I am going to make another attempt at sleep. Thanks for keeping me company.